Journal 77: Pressure from Parents

Yes, i have had lots of pressure from my parents. I don't know if it is just me or is it that my parents really meant it, they gave me alot of emotional pressure. They would say something that you hate to hear it. They never really released any physical pressure such as forcing me away from a club or anything. What they do is that they would constantly say little things about you and make you so irritated about something that in the end you will do it just for them to shut the fuck up.
The only problem and biggest prerssure im getting from them now is probably SAT. I know that they spent so much money for me to run around the world and spending all their time on me, they probably would want me to come back with a good score. But, im just now a test person, i suck at tests, i can know a whole lot but once you put it all in test form, i lost track of what i was saying and all my knowledge. Sigh, they always put pressure on the things they know i can't do, and never the things i really like. I love taekwando, but they never really showed any affection for it even when im at the very top. They just said, well you know that fcking watever watever kid can cook a cake. i was like, fck, seriously? My mom and dad probably don't know me really well, i don't know, but at least they're now giving me too much pressure.

Journal 76: White Lie

I'd say it depends on the person and situation. I suppose when Colonel Sartoris lied to Miss Emily is because she was utterly hopeless. Without a job, without a family, without friends, she basically had nothing. If she was not lied about the tax thing, she will probably be broke and end up in jail for not paying.
White lie is, although we should all be truthful, acceptable. If you don't know how to white lie, you might end up without friend. You always need to lie in some degree to save some dignity for the person instead of just saying " you are god dam ugly" That is just kind of too much for a person. When someone asks you a obvious question that is probably a negative answer, you will want to say what they want to hear. I admit, this might be something that is in the asian culture and not in the american or whatever world. This is in some degree a social skill in out history to be all humble and stuff to avoid getting people mad.
I white lie to people too, its a process that is inevitable that you will do it to maintain your social position.

Journal 60: Think About…

first, the civil war started with the abolition of slavery. The North wanted to ban slavery and the south wants it so they can make more money. North didn't really need slavery, so of course its easy for them to say we don't want it. With the South, people needed slavery a whole lot. The plantations are hard work that requires a lot of labor force.
Then we have the american writers writing about the events that happened during the civil war. Crane wasn't born that time, but reading stories and interviewing the veterans gave him a general idea of what happened.
Next is Realism. The basic characteristics of Realism are: detailed information and reality in comprehensive detail, characters are more important than plot, ethical choices are subjects of the literature, class is important, events are usually plausible, and diction is natural. 
Naturalism got big in the 1980s where writers focused on philosophical and scientific principles. 

Journal 71: Historical Influences

Ok, so i looked at the timeline, and three event came into my mind to be particular impacting. The Titanic, world war 1, and the feminist movement, well potentially the panamal canal. The panamal canal helped ended the great depression that's for sure. THen there is the all tragic story of the Titanic. Its so romanticised that it is to the point of disgusting in the movie. The beautiful ship was all dramatic and stuff at the current time i suppose.
Then World War 1 is definitely impacting for the society. Having so many people fighting each other and people all over the world to be dying is quite intense. The suffering and the amount of death and trench warfare is unbelievable.
The feminist movement of political rights is a modern idea that no men would be crazy enough to propose such idea to the society. All political positions was being held by men all the time in history. Nothing suggested women to be in charge. So when women pushed for their political and voting rights, that must have been pretty devastating to people.

Journal 75: Shadow of the Past

Emily is influenced by her past in multiple ways. The status of her family influenced her life in a significant way seeing that she could avoid the law and live above it. Then there is the past of her dad and how she couldn't walk over the fact that his dad. She still clings on to the only male present that she have experienced before.
Next is her own family and the town's pride. The family probably wouldn't want her to be dating a yankee so does the town. That's why they contacted her cousin to persuade her to dump the Yankee. They are a high up society class that thinks they are better than everyone. To have one in a whole family to do such a thing is just against the norm of the family.
The town wouldn't want such a thing to happen as well since they were the south and the Yankees are the North. The town want all the women in be marry adn have lots of children. However, they want those to be southerner children rather than some Yankee children.

Journal 74: Poetry’s Social Function

Poetry is not bad or anything, its just that its hard to understand for some people and that kids find it annoying to evaluate something complicated. Its definitely not deteriorating, its just modern kids are finding it hard to appreciate it. However, the older people are getting more and more interested in poetry than kids. It oculd be said that poetry is experiencing a shift of interest between age groups. The poems nowadays are getting more and more interesting as it is connected to songs or creating a sort of rhythm that's like a song. In this manner, poetry are getting more and more interesting for people. Such as when you look at the poems conducted during that poet show that you showed us. So many people was interested in the poems that was proposed because humor and focus on the societal problems are being used in them. In difference from the imagists or something like that, we have focused on that before, so we don't care. For me, i like to do or create something that attacks people's idea or view on something. It might not necessarily be shocking, but my ideas are like the poems that were read aloud, to shock and inform people of a idea. (i went to look at more poems on the show and this is what i find)

Journal 73: No Ideas But In Things

no, there should no limit in anything. Art, have no limits, and so should poetry. Poetry is influential to both art and literature. The poems of the imagists are pure simple words. They are there to provide the reader with a simple picture in mind such as the red barrel. Nothing else. With a similar idea going on that time, it is the architecture principle of less is more. I suppose one way or the other the idea was influencing the two groups, literature and art. In art, it was having the minimal of all things. Cutting out the extra and making something plain and simple. In the way the imagist writes, it is the same concept of how their ideas and words hace the same idea. The poems that was written by the imagists was strip from the glamorous adjectives that some other writers would include like J.K Rowling. Everything is bare to the very core, telling you a tale of a red barrel.

Journal 72: War and Economics

so, we're basically still at war, except not big wars. We are having a economic downfall or recession at almost all places such as Europe, America, still in Africa and some eastern countries. Asia and Muslims are infact getting really really rich. I suspect in the next few years, the main business will be Asia and all the money and people will be flowing there. Although alot of people in China are corrupt, they will probably get the most money.
Other thing at this time period is religious war. It's more of a country hating the other country where America just hated the Iraqs. The only way said to eliminate this hate is to bomb the other country to shred such as Mecca. Well, bombing Mecca is letting them become traumatized. I will gladly walk infront of the person who thought about this idea and slap them. This is a condemnation to people's faith and to the God. In fact, what worries me more is that right after this, it will launch the world into like a World War 1 and 2 combine.
Full range nuclear war of mass destruction going bombing everywhere. Muslims will grab their shotgun and kill every white dude or even asian people on the street. The whole world would be in complete and total chaos.

Journal 69: Make It New

this quote i believe definitely have something to do with modernism in the art field. Modern art could basically be classified as anything adn everything. a color or a splatch of paint if named right and have a concept that could support its existence can be named right there, on the spot, art.
This could be such a long journal espacially when i dont want to write a long journal now ~"~
art is the process where one creates order and stability out of chaos. When you make art, you created something of your own representaiton through the chaos of life. When i make art, i'm always happy, why? because instead of using words where someone might question you and might attack you in public. You get to make you point from a picture that you drew that can worth a million words. It communicates to people in all sorts of different ways and no explanation might be needed for specific pieces. Of course if you created a abstract art form or somethng like Barnet newman, i suppose you might have to explain why that color on your painting is art.
Art is the best thing in the world which allows people to express themselves in any way. Words in a book or a written message requires one to have a basic knowledge of the language. art just require well, basically nothin, its a simple expressive use of hand or anything you have on your body.

Journal 62: Romantics v Realists

i can't really say i see any difference in the writings for now since i only saw the silk stocking and john profrock. I suppose the realists are really much more concern of their current situations. The subjects and the writings of their time are also concern with societal problems occuring in the world. The silk stocking story talks about the gender role and the insights of a woman at that time without revealing what it is actually about. If it weren't for the talking in class and searching up online for ideas, i would not have thought about how its talking about the thoughts of escaping reality.
In Prufrock's story, we also get a glimpse of a person's mind right before he shifts out of reality. His consicous waver between the idea of escaping the reality and expierencing something new and adventurous. He hears the mermaid and the voice in his head tempting him to try something. He hesitates and wonders on if he should do it over and over again. Its another glimpse of the mindset of someone just like the silk stocking story.

Journal 65: You’ve Come a Long Way, Baby

A whole lot have changed, in fact, i believe we are now even losing men's rights now. Men are like the pets and slaves of woman. Think about the social class of men nowadays. Women can have multiple men chasing them and they are consider hot. When a man have multiple women chasing him, we are then considers as heartbreakers or flowery heart. I dont know how to translate that.
If we have a divorce, we men hacve to pay for their living while we also have to keep the kids. Women expects us to pay for all of their expenses and have to baby talk to them before sleep. We have to tolerate all of their anger and misbehavior simply because they can and we can't.
If we do something that is against they get to complain day and night and we man will be called jerks
seriously, where are men's rights nowadays. If you think about it, men really are descending the social staircase of equality.

Journal 70: Social Influences – Entertainment

entertainments that are provided nowadays are basically what i like to call, unlimited. our entertainments range from watching tv for all day or grab a backpack and go out to see the world. With the modern transportation and conveniance for our lives, we can entertain ourselves in every possible way that you basically imagine and we have it. Problem is that you have to have the money to do all that good entertainment you desire.
I suppose the 1940s have a very limited amount of entertainment that they can enjoy compare to the ones we have nowadays. However, i feel that because their our so many entertainment in the 20th century, it makes communicating and trying out new things to be a really scary and unparticipated activity for people.
If you ask someone would you go outside and look at the world or watch your tv on a saturday, i bet they will say they want to stay home and watch tv.
The entertainment in the 1940s i believe have alot of nature. nature wasn't as damaged as severely as today's environment. I believe that they have much more diversity as in nature participation activities.

Journal 68: What’s His Problem?

im basically going to give a summary of what this story means to my perspective as a whole or with lines that i still remember because i find this story extremely interesting and i feel i could learn something from it cuz its so philosophical in some terms.
On the surface context, it eludes to Prufrock growing old, his not sure if he should try out something that is totally new. His afraid if he walks down the path (descending the staircase) the woman on top of the stair case would talk shit about him such as how his bold and how skinny he is.
In discussion of this part, its as if his crippled and weak. To find courage in challenging something brand new is frightening and quite mysterious or even dangerous for people. At Prufrock's age which i assume at this time is not so young since his bold is even more exciting and dangerous. There is saying that when someone tries something new, its as if his walking into a ocean tide, like a tsunami where the wind is strong, tide furious and his future a great unknown. I figure my way of thinking him walking into a huge wave of unknowns is the samw assumption in the later part of the story as he have his trousers high.
In other multiple senses, besides the story of him leaping into something new, the time period is a consideration.
He says that he is drowning in the bottom of ocean when his awake with the colorful things. His out in the surface in his sleep where he sees black and white. This time period is just after the colorful lives of the traditional paintings. Modernism is full of conceptual and expressionistic ideas that is unlike anything the past have ever seen. They cut away the glamorous and the pretty color to soemthing crazy and nto colorful. SOmetimes a piece of work could be a few simple color splached on top of the canvas. As for literature, i saw one of the poems in this time period in class. They cut out all the other lines into thin slabs of two lines. That was all it takes.
Rejection of the "More" quality is the trend of modernism, this might be alluding back to the ocean color theory that Prufrock was talking about.
All the other stuff i have said it in class about the society moving forward and he sees colleagues transforming while he stays the same.

Journal 67: The American Dream

bascically, i forgot all about the american dream back when the time i have U.S history. For the L.S Elliot story, i don't really see how that have to do with rejecting the traditional ideas. Actually, putting into some thoughts on concept wise, i think i kind of found what's new with this style.
THe American dream and modernism is a time that rejects the traditional. New things are being found such as in art. Expressionism was pushed into even more abstract terms that eventually ended up with a whole new category called Modern Art.
Art was thought as more concept wise. The representation can mean many things but what is the fundamental idea that is bwhind the artwork? that is what was important. Art in the 20th century promoted people and wanted people to think.
I figured this story we're reading right now did made alot of people think. Like me, i was suddenly interested at it once i understand he used. Since this jumping out of reality and taking a leap was a idea that concerning my mind for so long, this story was a push for me to think about new things.

Journal 66: Better Things?

frantically, i agree. I could see the ideas behind her words and questioning if the advance of technology really did brought men forward in society. We're moving so fast and so many things can take care of our concerns that alot of the qualities at that time was forgotten. If it is not forgotten, then it is that we have no place to demonstrate that quality.
For example, courage. How do we demonstrate courage in nowadays? i really have no idea. In the old times, we could probably face a bear in a jungle alone. Now? we get to face a dragon in video games or cars in the streets. So where did all the bears went? dead, driven away deeper and deeper in the woods and eventually we never see them again.
Then we have the fact that technology have shortened the attention span of modern kids. I can even feel that kids nowadays are getting dumber and duller. Why? i walk around the lower school back in my old school and i see kids holding a itouch or psp playing games the whole time. All you have to do is take a hand held device and sit down the whole time. What happened to sports? thinking creatively for new games with nature? running and catching bugs? none. All of this was taken away by technology. Technology is so big and conveniant in the 21th century that have forced people to become dull in sense, dull in mind, and dull in heart. They have abandoned the interaction with nature and thinking. They took up handheld devices that asks them to sit down in a chair doing nothing but clicking buttons.
People in the ancient times didn't have all thses devices to do their works for them. They had to think out of the box and use their actual hands to try out and experiment with different things. That, promoted learning and critical thinking. These psp and itouch games doesn't. If you say that they promote fast thinking through playing games, i wouldn't agree. I beleive that a week in the wilderness can sharpen your senses. A month in the wilderness taught you life lessons. Appreciation for life, physical strength and a healthy mind. I believe in the romantic heroes not because of the beautiful characteristics, that's too much idealization. I admire those things because it is what actually will be useful in life and the environment at that time actually sharpen a person's whole body.
What would be best i believe now, is to have the same free thinking concepts and conceptual philosophy of the 21st century and a combination of pure nature. That, would most likely bring a totally new human race as the physical reality challenges people while our mindsets are free .