Journal Entry 5: Guilt

No, thats major public humuiliation, dam i would hate that. I haven't really read that much about the reactions of Hester Prynne, only to the part where she saw her husband and the sign fingers. I'm not sure if she felt guilty about this event, but i beleive not really. The feeling of guilt is a complicated thing, the first 5 times of doing something new and its bad will feel guilt. Once you go past a set amount of number for doing bad stuffs, you get numb and no more guilt rises. I feel guilt when arguing with my mom or dad. No matter what we fight about, it usually just fades away or i will still do what they want. I would feel guilt when i secretly buy cloths. Like a pair of jeans acan make me feel guilty, guilty to my own heart of saving money. i have always wanted to save money, but when you have your jeans completly ripped, you need a new pair of jeans or i have nothing to wear. During those times, buying a pair of jean makes me feel guilty because i disobeyed my own ideas. Leaving my homeworks on the side and play games first also makes me feel guilty. I don'y know why, most of the things that i would feel guilty are the things that contradicts my own code of honor (something like that). There's another thing that i would feel guilty of, that's when i didn't accomplish a task that my friends told me to do. I can feel guilty about that for a long time. It feels incomplete, therefore i would do something extra to make it up to them.

Journal Entry 4: Puritan Poetry

After reading the poem for the fourth time, i still had the same impression that i saw last time. Anne believe that humans are here in earth to suffer, well that's what i felt. The suffering of mankind is a test to see if you can handle the entertianments luking all around you. To the puritans, pleasure in life is like sin, you shall not be into pleasure or you will go to hell. In the poem of Anne, she was unafraid (or that she didn't describe) the hardships that lies infront of her for rebuilding her home. It seems to me as if she might even be happy about the fact that she lost all her belongings, in relating to the philosophical ideas of the Puritans. Since the puritans view all leisures as the sins of men and only God's grace can save us. As it spins around the belief that you have to "feel" God's grace, possibly Anne can even view the loss of all her things as God's grace. God burned down all her goods, as a token for her well being of a women, away from leisures in life. Having her goods all burnt away, Anne might even think that the fire was the Grace of God and be happy about her life. If this was done to me, boy i would be mad. However, with the deists and the rationalists, they won't even bother to think about the grace of God. Definitely no poems will be written, the place would be like a CSI crime case. They will be identifiing the evidence of the burnt site and who might have done it. They believe in the fact that Goed would not interfere in their lives, then there would be no reason for God to take away their stuff, it would contradictory to the purpose of making this world. My poem would be about sorrow at first, but then view it as a adventure. Well, actually it depends on the time, if it was modern times, i would be pissed, and then call agents or insurances. If  it was at that time, i will have to build my little fire with skills i learnt from books, build my quick little house with trees, find a cave to hide from the cold. It would paleolithic era again.

Journal Entry 3: No Big Thing

To start this journal, i have to say that today's event is the opposite from my last journal. The last journal was about me suffered in a car accident in extremem horrific circumstances. Today, is the actual event that happened to my small car crash of me and my friend's family. It started from us driving down a crossroad while me and my friends were chatting. When we cross the street with our car, a car rammed from the side into us. It may sound incredibly dangerous, but the actual event was just a loud noise, and then nothing else. I was sitting on the side of the door that was hit, i just shook a little bit and it was over. We parked our car at the side to examine the damage while my friend's mom called for agents. The one who rammed into us was a Mexican family i believe. Im not being racist, just clarifying who hit us. While we waited for the agents, the family was shouting and talking in mexican, and we were quite puzzled as they fought quite fiercly. Once the agent came, the family started saying how we were wrong for breaking the rules, and that they smashed into our car caused a injury in her grandmother's neck. Well, clearly they were fighting a second before this, so i beleive nmothing really happened. The debate between the agent, police and the family became so interesting, me and my friend went across the street for ice cream cone. We sat down by a little bench beside and look at how the mexican family were talking with hand gestures, saliva flying everywhere, clearing things out. It was quite hilarious, but it really isn't a event that you would tell your friend to for significant. That was the reason why i never bought it up.

Journal Entry 3: Possessions

Anne was positive to the situation where she basically lost everything. She wasn't pessimistic about the situation, she wasn't hating God or crying till her eyes will bleed. She accepted the cherished idea during that time and believed it was just for God to take away her stuff. I don't agree with that, some of these are hard earned items that you devoted yourself into. If God gave you a house out of nowhere, then i believe there is a right in taking it. However, she worked for the house and the possesions inside it( I Believe she did), then that leaves God in no position to take away something that is solely hgers. To me, my most prized mutual possesion is taste. If i can't taste or smell anything, that is like taking the fun in my life completly. Food, is the one thing i must absolutly have. If we're talking about something that we own, then that would be my comics book. It serves me in every aspects, it can make me cry, it can make me laugh, it can make me feel energetic, it can do alot of things. Most of all, it gives me creativity, the artworks and story inside comics book is what opens my life. If i don't have comic books, i really don't know where i can get all of my ideas for games, paintings, drawings, or any sort of creativity ideas. In fact, i worked hard for my collection of comic books. Life without possessions is a painful route, one must have real courage and spirit to stick to an idea like this.

Rationalism v Puritanism

The puritans believed that all people are born bad. The only thing that can save us is the grace of God. The rationalist believed in reasoning, they believed that God will not interefere with the world. God created the world, and he will stand aside and that the worldto run on its own. They don't believe in the fact that praying would make a change to the world. Logics are everywhere in the world and it can solve the problems of the world.
People thay are asd devoted to religion as to the puritains are not as much in modern days as to people in the columbian times. I believe that people can find a spiritual support in religion, we don't consider ourselves as sinners the minute we are born . The religion extremist probably beleive ythe same wat. The extremists now range from muslims to chritians and all religions. The tarionalists are kind of aetheist in a way that God doesn't exxisty to them now. The rationalists are growing in number. To some extent, they believe that reasons can solve everything. For me, i don't beling in the aethesist. I believe that religion and beliefs are a kind of spiritual support. However, i'm not like the puritans that believe we are all sinners and born evil. I also don't believe in the idea that chritianiyu is yhr only True Belif, that's a false idea. Hacving a bit of faith and spiritual support to the world around us or life could help a person through alot of things. It can solve stress, emotional breakdowns and sometimes things in life that you just can't do anything about it. It can give a person invisible strengths.

A New Nation

I believed that the puritans are pretty high in self esteem, and quite riud as well. Our founding fathers might also be proud as well, but we're not sure if they are like that to the Indians. I believe that, to some extent they did fulfill their manifest destiny. Their manifest destiny was to stretch from shing sea to shining sea. They did, but as to the purpose and how they did it, i don't think Jesus is going to be proud about them. In the ten commandmants of christianity, one of the specific commandmant was "Thou shall not kill". The fact that we were pushing the indians away from their settlements and slaughtering them with our advance weapons ir not something that Jesus or God himself want to see. God and Jesus's sole purpose is to come down and save people, i believe that believe in the fact of world peace as well. Our manifest destiny led us off the original track of God, and led us into another misleading trail that involves slaughter and discrimination. On the surface, we did accomplish what "we", the americans believe that we did. As of the big picture of the whole himan race, we should not be proud of what we did.
The faith of the Puritans were strong, they beleived that chritianity was the only religion and the only truth. They portrays the native Americans as heretics, their belief of different Gods as heresies. I believe that's wrong, what gives our ancestors in the U.S the power to declare them as unjust and uncoventional? It contradicts of what we believed in, the freedom of speech. It was as if that was all a big lie, our past in the American history was quite a failure, the history of the Native Americans are extremely tragic, the tortures and the abandoning their homes without choice, and etc. These are all harsh past of our ancestors, the puritans are ignorant people, to think of themselves so high up.